Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Colette

It's so curious , one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief . But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window , or one notices that a flower was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed , or a letter slips from a drawer , and everything collapses .

Another disaster in life ?

I just could not believe that we are actually moving ? Seriously , I can't accept it no matter how hard I've tried . This place is where I grew up , with bad and good memories and it means a lot to me . Why are you doing this to us ? If it wasn't because of you , mummy and ayah would not have this problem . You were the one who caused all these shits , but you left us , leaving mummy and ayah with it . They have to solve this , they have to pay for it even though it's not their fault ! WHY WHY WHY ? And now , because of you , we have to sell our house to pay everything to the bank so that mummy would not be blacklisted . EVERYTHING ! I just hope that one day you would come crawling back to us and tell mummy that you're sorry . I SERIOUSLY HOPE SO ! Fuck .