"Snuff" by Slipknot

Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again... So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know. My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there. Deliver me into my fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you... My smile was taken long ago If I can change I hope I never know I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light But all of that was ripped apart... when you refused to fight So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear. You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough? I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end. I never claimed to be a saint... My own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let you go So break yourself against my stones And spit your pity in my soul You never needed any help You sold me out to save yourself And I won't listen to your shame You ran away - you're all the same Angels lie to keep control... My love was punished long ago If you still care, don't ever let me know If you still care, don't ever let me know... Just some notes.... Thank you so much for this song. Even though it's just a memory but I appreciate it and I will embrace it. Thank you so much :)

When old memories come back to haunt you

Why must I still think about you when I already have someone else in my life as well as you? I don't understand myself sometimes. And even worse, I still love you more than I love him. Well that's some newsflash for ya right? And yes, it's true. Please tell me, how can I ever forgive you after what you've done but why can't I forget you? WHY? I still stalk your profile using someone else's account and I still remember every single thing, detailed. You know, I was about to gave you up but then Allah has set the day when we met at McDonald's and your words gave me a slight of hope again...till now. I'm not trying to ruin your relationship with that girl, but all I want is for us to just be friends. Is it that hard for you? It hurts me when you didn't reply my birthday wish last 17th June, and not only that... You didn't even reply my Hari Raya wish. Am I a nuisance to you? WELL AM I? It hits me, HARD. My brain keeps thinking about you, I spend my fucking days thinking about you man when I'm supposed to think of someone else! Why are you so important to me when I don't even cross your bloody mind for 1 second?! This makes me regret the words I've said to you. I really hope that we'll meet again one day and you're gonna hear words that you wouldn't wanna hear. I'm gonna make sure you'll feel how I feel. YOU ARE GONNA PAY. Mark my words and I'm sorry.

K

Why did you come into my life and left just like that ? What did I do wrong or were you just another passer-by ? I miss you so much . Like crazy ! Eventhough I've tried so hard , really hard to forget you , but they don't seem to work out . And now you're back with her . Good for you but... what about me ? Where's the explanation you promised me ? It's been 5 months , 5 months and I'm still lost . Sometimes I'm mad , sometimes I'm sad . I can't be this way anymore . People are asking me , why I've changed and so on . I'm not the happy-go-lucky Sheemal anymore . But how can I answer them when you're the reason why ? Especially to my family . For your information , I'm totally lost .

Hi .

Why are you doing this to me ?

Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Colette

It's so curious , one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief . But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window , or one notices that a flower was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed , or a letter slips from a drawer , and everything collapses .

Another disaster in life ?

I just could not believe that we are actually moving ? Seriously , I can't accept it no matter how hard I've tried . This place is where I grew up , with bad and good memories and it means a lot to me . Why are you doing this to us ? If it wasn't because of you , mummy and ayah would not have this problem . You were the one who caused all these shits , but you left us , leaving mummy and ayah with it . They have to solve this , they have to pay for it even though it's not their fault ! WHY WHY WHY ? And now , because of you , we have to sell our house to pay everything to the bank so that mummy would not be blacklisted . EVERYTHING ! I just hope that one day you would come crawling back to us and tell mummy that you're sorry . I SERIOUSLY HOPE SO ! Fuck .