When old memories come back to haunt you

Why must I still think about you when I already have someone else in my life as well as you? I don't understand myself sometimes. And even worse, I still love you more than I love him. Well that's some newsflash for ya right? And yes, it's true. Please tell me, how can I ever forgive you after what you've done but why can't I forget you? WHY? I still stalk your profile using someone else's account and I still remember every single thing, detailed. You know, I was about to gave you up but then Allah has set the day when we met at McDonald's and your words gave me a slight of hope again...till now. I'm not trying to ruin your relationship with that girl, but all I want is for us to just be friends. Is it that hard for you? It hurts me when you didn't reply my birthday wish last 17th June, and not only that... You didn't even reply my Hari Raya wish. Am I a nuisance to you? WELL AM I? It hits me, HARD. My brain keeps thinking about you, I spend my fucking days thinking about you man when I'm supposed to think of someone else! Why are you so important to me when I don't even cross your bloody mind for 1 second?! This makes me regret the words I've said to you. I really hope that we'll meet again one day and you're gonna hear words that you wouldn't wanna hear. I'm gonna make sure you'll feel how I feel. YOU ARE GONNA PAY. Mark my words and I'm sorry.