Life ? Not the same anymore , ):

Everything in life seem different than the way it really was . Seriously . If you guys see me smiling all the way , it was totally fake . All of it was just a lie , a fake attitude and seriously different than the real me . I'm lying behind the life that i'm going through , it is now really cracking my head up . I feel like dying all the way . I've never gone through these kind of serious situation . I don't even think that i can handle it . Oh godd , help me through it ! I'm begging you , please ):